It's hard for me to take it already ,

I've been waiting for another 2 more days ,

Yet you said we maybe ain't going to watch movie ..?
Is that crashing my hopes ..?
I hope you don't see this ,

I don't want you to get hurt ,

I don't want you to cry ,

I'm trying to be strong myself .

I can't understand anything already ,

I seriously trying to stop myself from tear-ing down ,

I'm trying my very best to be happy and stop with those stupid fake-smiles .

I just want to stop all those craps ,

I maybe trying too hard or being demanding ..?
Or loves to force people or so .

Do you think I'm kinda childish ..?
I know i am ,
Don't try to blame it on you ,

Because I am , 

But i ain't the best boy you ever had in your life ,

I don't understand and i love you .

95 days :) ,

Love you (L)